Throat Surgery

Scheduled next week. For me? Nope my husband. How ironic is this. He has been having trouble swallowing. He has a flap in his esophagus that needs to be removed.

Surgery day. I’m trying to think of other things to write about but not happening.

Surgery went well so I’m told. People can be so annoying, I don’t know if they are uncomfortable with the deaf and mute, or if it’s they think we are uneducated and can’t understand, so, we don’t deserve to know what’s going on. But give us the opportunity to know. If we don’t understand fine. But tell us. Truthfully, sometimes I’m too tired to listen. But I do think people are uncomfortable, so they say as little as possible. Many try to read my expressions. Or worse my mom will try to guess and invent words for my signs (always wrong) and will not listen when someone tells her the correct words. (Rolling my eyes)

The doctors seem to be uncomfortable. It could be because it was the same doctor that told me my voice coming back was most likely hopeless.

Now the surgery is finished and it’s the next day. It was convenient he could sign and not hurt his throat. Today he is back to talking and trying liquids. But honestly, I’m a bit jealous, he had throat surgery and can talk fine? He has stitches in his throat but can still talk. I don’t understand. Before surgery the doctor poked at his neck and such to check if he had pain. I think I always have a little pain or discomfort in my throat and ear pain. It’s nothing serious, I don’t think about it much but again it’s all connected. He just went through surgery and is talking.

I’m so relieved he made it through I was so overwhelmed. I really felt it when he was rolled away and I didn’t need to put on the brave face for him anymore and I was alone. I prayed and wrote, wishing I had brought a distracting book.