Regret

Out of the blue some years back I started having seizures, and I delayed going to the doctor. Do doctors know why a young healthy 23-year-old would start having grand-mal seizures? Or course not. Lyme? Maybe. I just thought I could figure it out naturally. I didn’t think of the damage each seizure was doing. I knew a young girl that had many seizures a day, and I thought, wow! her poor brain. It was hard for her to communicate, I’m not sure if she talked much. I was having about one a month and didn’t consider the damage they were doing to me. I didn't make the connection.

Also, the stress my family went through wondering if I would have a seizure. My husband watching me pass out and not breathe for minutes turning blue and checking my tongue and broken teeth afterwards. Or my kids watching them and wondering if they will have them too. All avoidable if I took care of them sooner.

Finally, I went. Going to doctors and not getting answers has been stressful. I would tell them my list of concerns or problems and they would say everything looks normal making me feel like it was all in my head. It sad how limited the doctor's knowledge and freedom to test and learn more is. I reluctantly went on 2 medications, because as we know drugs are the doctors answer for everything, but that is me complaining because they did help. And I wish I had sooner.

I write this more for those experiencing similar situation. Don’t mess around with seizures. I now have no voice, is it because I had years of untreated seizures I don’t know, but why expose your brain to unnecessary damage.